All these memories
are comming back

along with the jiggle on my hips
pure fat

I ate too much today
and for a while, my depression went away

Now i've just realize
how ugly and worthless I am

compared to all these other girls
pathetic is what i am

thats why ana always comes first
shes the best curse

when its all about me
and how happy i can be

its not other people
i have to please

its just going to be
perfection i need
I don't need other's
approval to live

I need to lose weight
to keep from slitting my wrist

I need to cut off my hair
to lose 5 pounds

and take cold showers
so the calories won make a sound

when i walk through the house
i want to hear no footsteps

when i walk in the snow
i want to leave nothing but the sweep of my dress

i want to walk
through the cracks of doors

i want to be a stick figure
not a whore

I want to feel pretty
even when im not

i want to be worth more
than you fought

The less you weigh
the more your worth

thats americas best curse

when there are people
stuffing mcdonalds down their throats

i hope one day they will choke

Anas will rule the word
one day

we will over power you
with our strength

eventhough we'er all
underweight

Toine Sheppard

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