This may be blunt, but it's how I feel,
My heart fucked up since your words, unreal.
I didn't deserve to be screwed up that way,
You twisted my mind, took my soul away.

Your mixed messages made me confused,
Left my brain battered and bemused.
You left my heart, torn, ripped apart,
All because I loved you, from the start.

I take the blame for being hurt,
But you didn't have to treat me like dirt.
There was no need for this added pain,
Why did you do it, what was the gain?

You could have told me your reason before,
Not waited, making me suffer more and more.
That's why I feel your reason, made up,
Not true, or factual, just fucked me up!

Keeping me dangling on a piece of string,
Giving me hope that back, you were coming.
Letting me think that you were missing me,
Just fucked me up, I don't want to be free.

Chaya Mc Carthy

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/fucked-up-4/