Part I - Conversation between me and my inner demon right before asking my wife for a divorce.
Part II - After I asked for the divorce.


Part I - The End
I am scared
Who the hell cares
The unknown is near
Has it ever been far

Is this an end of a beginning
It's the end of something
or the beginning of an end
Beginning of nothing

Do I turn left
Easy peasy
or do I turn right
Rough waters ahead

I pray for guidance but none has come
Because you are alone
Yes I am alone in this
Get used to it
No one here
Because you chased them away
No one near
Why would they be near

Mustn't shed a tear
No mustn't do that
Mustn't be weak
You are weak
But the pain
You deserve it
It hurts
Endure it
It burns
Stop your whining

What of the boy
He'll survive
Will his wounds heal
Yours did
Is he best with me or her
Maybe her
Not her please not her
You think you can do better

Not sure I can do it
Shut the hell up and get it over with
Yes Sir Sorry Sir
Is it done
Please forgive me for It is done

Part II - The Beginning

I said the words
About time
I felt the pain
Wasn't it wonderful
She didn't hate me
What
I shed the tears
Wait..She didn't hate you
She thinks I'm worthy
You aren't
I shared, she listened, she loved
What did you share
Me/You
Idiot
Leave me be
You need me
Get out
I can't because I am you
I am not afraid of you
You should be
The wall will come down
I'll be free
Free to leave
No I don't think so
Get out
I like it here
I said 'Get the hell out! '
...
Peace
Not yet

Paul Marshall

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/the-end-of-the-beginning-beginning-of-the-end/