If I was asked that question, I would tell you that I don't know. Everytime I think I'm happy something, someone, or even my mind, which plays tricks with me, ruins it. Everytime I'm happy and smiling, something happens to break me down and that smile dissapears. Mostly I blame myself. Am I weak? I don't know. Am I strong? I'm not sure. Why am I this way? I hate it! ! ! And I can't take it anymore!

Jessica Elizondo

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