Have you ever watched someone press their own self destruct button?

Did you watch yourself from behind the haze that drugs and love induce?

You’re back now, Calm, my Calm, i missed you like a hole in my heart

When you were gone, down, so far i couldn’t even see you,

And your absence, well, it bruised me black and blue,

But i held on for you.



You’re smaller now, eyes bigger, tales taller-but true

Because you’ve seen the world now baby,

Left me here to carry on life- except mine was breaking too

I couldn’t run away like you did, like she did, like everyone

Iv ever loved did.

Responsibilities

They’re tied, the shoelaces of life, to my destiny.



I stayed; you left, found Him, lost yourself.

Back now, you shake your head at your headstrong will,

Tell me of your faith in me-like i could ever survive in the world you did

Like i could fight all the demons you’re still pushing down with Prozac

Like i could possibly leave everyone in pursuit of love

Like i could stand tall and tell everyone to screw their expectations.



And i love you.

Thank you for coming back to me.

Thank you for seeing the light.

Thank you for believing in me-i believe in you.

Amy Carmichael

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/my-calm/