I ramble in my dreams
About who I would have been
If that January never happened
Would we have stayed more than friends

Your face crosses my mind
Every time I close my eyes
If I could only tell you
I hid behind my lies

I struck you hard
Not caring if I left you bleeding
What I wouldn't give
To show you that my emotions weren't fleeting

You've been with others, so have I
Yet none compare to us
Physically I am drawn to you
But it would be more than lust

I've imagined things we've never done
And words you would have said
My smile fills my eyes with tears
As I crawl back into bed

You're to thank for m dreaming nights
Your gentle touch caressed
I long to keep you by my side
If so, I would be blessed

I yearn to be yours again
But I can't understand why
You seem to have forgotten our past
That thought makes me want to die

You've made me who I am today
For that I owe my life
But nothing could ever be sweeter
Than the hope of becoming your wife

My realistic mind tells me
You won't even consider
But my hopeful heart keeps wishing
That you won't be a goddamn quitter

Please don't turn your back on me
I am a part of you
If January never happened...
Oh I wish, I pray I knew

Rebekah Parrish

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/regrets-39/