When everything seems to go dark
I can see clearly
I can feel it all
Unspoken words bounce off the prison in my mind
An outside world so foreign to my tastes
Knowledge of things I can’t forget
Moments of hate and pure regret
Make me resent it al again
Physically, I may be here
But if you looked you’d see I’m not
Maybe I never will
I wonder how you sleep at night
How can you not hear tortured screams?
How can your nightmares be peaceful dreams?
How could he say he’d be back soon?
I never got to say goodbye
I still haven’t told him the reason why
Maybe I never will
Every night I tell myself lies
When will the pain go away?
Can I turn back from what I want?
Does the hurt ever truly leave?
Because, now I think I’m beginning to see
Life can’t be so insignificant
If it is, then it’s all been for nothing
Wishing for it to leave won’t do a thing
Praying hasn’t helped release me
Everything I do is swept aside
So, I make my fair thee wells’
Maybe one day it’ll be ok
But for now it’s not that way
Goodbyes are hard
Though you’ll hardly notice the pain of moving on

Vanessa Kingsley

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