Once again feeling alone.
It's like a cycle i can't stop.
I'm cursed with doing this to myself.
It's like i can't stop doing this to myself.
It's like im my worst enemy.
I always end up causing myself hearbreak and pain! ! !
Why?
Why do i do that to myself?
From the first moment i met James i knew and yet i continue to put myself through pain instead of waiting for my true love! ! ! !
God give me patience!
I need to wait for him.
He's waiting for me and yet i continue to search for what i already have.
Stupid!
He's the only one that truely knows and loves me for me.
Im his world.
He should be mine, but somehow i convince myself to be stupid and hurt myself.
I need to stop while im ahead or there will be nothing left.
I just don't know how to Let It Be.
I need to learn before i destroy what he loves most in this world.
Lord i need guidence more than ever.

Black Rose Night

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-need-guidence-more-than-ever-now/