I feel that so many things are different
Changes for the better and for the worst
some are welcoming and some that truly hurt.

I have worked so hard to be
the person I know is inside.
But for some reason the person only hides.
So daily I adbide by these rules that have been placed.
And stop dreaming of the furture I use to chance.

So many emotions, confused on how I feel
I pinch myself daily to make sure this reality is real.
I just want to go somewhere and have time for my own.
And reflect in what maybe and what I've become.

Aggravation, Frustration runs through my veins
Chills down my body I appear to be stoned.
At least I appear to be because darkness has invitated my heart.
The old me completely ripped apart.

Friends say I am different
Changes only for the worse
Never were they welcoming
Only would they hurt.

So now I'm in the face of uncertainly.
The question should I stay or should I go?
Of course I dont know, If I did I wouldn't be in this position.
So this poem will be continued when I make my decision.

Stephanie Nicole McKean

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/aggravation-frustration-runs-through-my-veins/