Leah Messer hit rock bottom when she lost custody of her twin daughters, divorced from her second husband and was accused of abusing drugs. On this week’s Teen Mom 2, she admitted that she contemplated suicide during her downward spiral. On last week’s episode, Messer got stage fright during a motivational speaking gig. But she didn’t quit, as she booked a second speaking engagement.

“The last event I was so out of my element,” she admitted. “I just want to make a difference, that’s my passion. I’ve been pushed down to the ground a couple of times and then stomped on and ran over. I felt suicidal at one point. I didn’t want to be alive. I was that girl who had daddy issues.” Although Messer appeared nervous, she quickly got comfortable in front of the crowd. “My childhood wasn’t the best and then I had my own kids and it was like, ‘I’m responsible for not just one, but two little ones.’ I didn’t know what I was doing you guys,” she said. “I had no idea what I was doing, but I just tried to be the best mom I could be at all times. I hit rock bottom, I didn’t know my worth. Today I stand in my power. I know my worth.”

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