I swear I’m going crazy
You know
I walk around
Eyes closed
I smile
I see something
I see money in my hand
I buy what I want
I do what I want
I sit where I want
Sleep where I want
I talk
I talk to no-one
No-one except me
But I do see things
I see…
I see me being different
I see me getting revenge
I see me buying a job
I see me buying friends
Buying a life
I swear I’m going crazy
I’ve won…
I’ve won the lottery so many times
Every time I close my eyes
I win
I win money
I win a house
I win a new life
I swear I’m going crazy
If these words…
If I didn’t write these words down
I would be punished
I would be sanctioned
Declared insane
But they are written
Because they are written
I’m just a dreamer
I’m a sucker
I’m a hoper
But I swear I’m going crazy.


© Pamela A.C. James-Blackwood 2006

Pamela James Blackwood

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