How i wish that things turned out
Different

I saw you,
Us,
going down a different path

I feel so guilty,
I'm a horrible person

See, I can only imagine
What you must be going through
Yet all I can think about is how this
effects me

I have such selfish thoughts
Like how I won't have you there,
to experiance that first party
Or the day that I turn 18

I will never be able
to take up your day
Or even an entire night

We will never be able to grow up together
And transform into the women
We are meant to be

Your baby will have you all himself
And for that I fell sick,
With myself

Because I resent this
helpless life,
That has not even come to
Exist

Madeline Fazio

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-am-selfish/